My husband's job allows for him to be a part of a gigantic network of uniformed and non-uniformed employees throughout the entire state. Most of those employees have or will be employed as a career for years and years and years, keeping in touch and running into those they've known or even just been aquainted with even after retirement. It doesn't stop there. The famlies of these employees, whether they work themselves or not, tend to know many employees and families as well.

My husband, Mike has transfered around the state enough to know various areas and people before ending up living here in the northern most part of California. Promoting again soon will most likely take him away from home for a while and inevitably will end up working with at least a small handful of people he has worked with before (or at least knows through another person).

The San Jose office is where Mike has spent the most time since we've been married. They were very family oriented in there, having not only an annual Christmas party for adults, but also one for the children. Along with their own squad cars, those in charge got together with other agencys and rounded up a firetruck, a ambulance and maybe a couple of cool tow trucks and even flew Santa in on a C.H.P. helicopter. Very exciting. It was pot luck and paid for by all of us chipping in (no pun intended) throughout the year.

One of those in charge of getting things together was a fellow Sergeant named Brian, who worked along side Mike until transfering elsewhere about a year before we left ourselves. Brian was always so funny and positive, getting along with everyone as far as I could tell. I had my own relations with him (be nice) with inside jokes, etc. In other words, I knew him personally - on my own. I could call him up and talk to his wife for a get together or a favor, that sort of thing...though I never did.

Though we haven't been in touch much over the last 3 years - just Christmas cards and the occasional e-mail. Anytime I hear the name Brian, he comes to mind before anyone else. We had fun times. I took for granted we'd all have our paths cross again someday sooner or later.

Today, Mike gave me a call from work with some sad news. Brian commited suicide last night.

THUD.

I know no details. I'm just totally shocked. I can think of others that I wouldn't be as surprised, but HIM?! A million things run through my mind. A million cliches and quotes of living, loving, communicating while you can---

True. We never know.

So this day is for Brian, our friend. And as we joked anytime our paths would cross...

"You know? You're damn good lookin'!"

Bye good lookin' - I'll never forget you.

aww. damn. I'm sure the details will come out shortly. was he still with his wife? how is mike?

Yeah, enough details are out. He and his wife have been divorced. I guess that's why we haven't gotten a Christmas card the last 2 years. Do you remember him? You've met him before at the concert at the winery.
Mike is okay, probably better than I am. He's used to cealing with things like this much more than I am - how sad is that?:-(

That is so sad...Hope you feel better. Its so hard to understand why they do it. My lab partner from HS committed suicide after a year of college. I couldn't understand why. He didn't seem to be the type to do something like that and he was well liked by everyone that crossed his path. It just didn't make any sense at all.

Don't cry "I need help!" yet go home and turn on the television. The gods don't respect this.
There is no such things as a savior. This is yet another tactic they have employed as temptation, much like "earning" or distractions.
You have to save yourself.

The Man in the Moon clue:::A constant companion, the "Man in the Moon" clue needs to be viewed as a reminder, for this environment is one in which it is very easy to lose your way, either via temptation or distraction.
Look to the sky. Begin to associate the Moon with the clue they impart with this celestial feature. Use it as a reminder to pray, to be god-fearing, for this is a very antient clue and shows their great power.
We only see one side of the moon at all times, another clue from the gods:::There is a "dark side" we don't see.


There is a BIG LIE here. Sigmund Freud proves it.
Wine proves it. Democracy proves it. Materialism/greed proves it.
The middle management tactic allows them to maintain this perception of an "absentee good (Christian) god", ensuring one of the goals of the United States remains useful::::NO FEAR!!!
The gods instruct Artificial Intelligence to employ evil as temptation. If people still believed in the Devil at least they would be on the lookout. Resign to be good.

The gods are sending a clue Yahoo is good with this Chinese censorship issue.
The American idea of freedom is a shock rocker anally masterbating with a crucifix. This is what the disfavored are free to view in this open society, and due to their disfavor a certain percentage will either be pushed into it or will comply, ensuring damnation. It's kind of like the KKK and Apartheid issue except this is for whites of the modern era::::Democracy ensures a false sense of security.

US popular culture is obsence. Intentionally. The gods are preying on the disfavored who remain, those foolish enough to participate.
The Chinese have favor and the gods allow the government to protect the citizens, but Chinese c